It's really kind of strange writing a blog and even stranger saying "hello" to all these strangers. And if that isn't strange enough I have these strangers writing back to me. Now isn't that strange?

I never knew that writing a blog or anything that could or could not make sense and have people accept it. I guess however some may be rejecting it. They just don't have the gonads to tell me. For those that do comment on what I say, that encourage me, and tickle my ego, thank you!

Now there is another group of people out there that log on to my website, flip through it, probably read the blogs that I haven't' managed to stir enough positive or negative emotion to entice them to comment. What I have to say to you is please at least say "hello, how's the weather? I think that what you're doing is great or I think what you are doing is stupid" I guess you could say some may find it sacrilege. And there is probably those that think it is just some kind of scam. And there are people that have accumulated a certain degree of apathetic skepticism. If you are one of these let me assure you that my reason for creating the website is honest.

I am on 15 liters of oxygen 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I very seldom leave my home because I cannot carry enough oxygen to allow much time away from my concentrator and my enormous tanks. I am sure you've seen people with the little silver oxygen tanks that they roll around on a cart. For most people those tanks last an average of 4 to 6 hours. They only last me 24 minutes each. It was only after a great deal of praying, soul searching, and conversing with the Lord that gave me the inspiration to give people a forum to serve multiple purpose. Most importantly to sit down and write to a loved one that has passed the things in their heart and mind that fall into that category of "I only wish". "I only wish I had said something" "I only wish that I had done something" "I only wish that the guilt that I feel for some reason could be somehow lessened." By sitting and writing to someone is basically like a personal prayer. Sending them with me when I join the afterlife is only secondary. As was said before, we don't know if this will work, but it is sure worth a try. I have every confidence that every portion of my life on this planet will be the education and knowledge I will be carrying into the afterlife with me. I feel confident that I will find a way to deliver these messages and letters to their intended recipients. After all I will have all of eternity to find them and pass your feelings to them.

According to my doctors I suffer from emphysema, idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis, pulmonary hypertension, and congestive heart failure. Along with these diseases I was issued my death sentence of six months to a year, but closer to the six months. I am proud to say that by properly eating, sleeping sixteen hours a day (sometimes twenty four), trying to take a block walk (or at least three or four houses down the road) and having a holy mailbag that isn't' full, I have managed to stay one and a half years.

One of the criteria when conversing with the Lord was that I wanted to do some good with the time that I have left. I not only want to take messages to those that have passed on but I want to do everything possible to encourage and help my fellow man and woman from killing themselves, destroying their lives, thiner future, and the happiness and life of their loved ones by campaigning against smoking. 

I want to make it clear that it costs nothing to send a letter, leave a message for me to deliver, however having my impending death thrust upon me many years before my end should come I find myself ill prepared financially to maintain my mounting medical and other living expenses. So if it strikes you to make a gift of any amount it would be greatly appreciated. This can be done whether you are sending a message or you just feel like contributing to the hardships  that a stranger to you has had thrust upon them. I thank all of you in advance if you feel like a small financial gift or just a note on my blog or my guest book and just say "hi". That would take us out of the stranger column, we would no longer be strangers. To make a gift go to the gifting page or click anywhere in the site on the word gift to take you to the payment page. 

I know this is a long blog this time, but I just wanted the world to know why I am doing what I am doing so they could understand a little more. There is something that I would like to ask of everyone who reads my blog. Leave me a message. Ask me a question. Give me an idea of something you would like to know or hear about. Don't be bashful of asking me about dying. What it's like. How does it feel? How does my spouse handle it? Or any other questions that you feel that I might be able to answer about knowing I am dying and how do I feel about it, because someday we're all going to die. Some may have long long life, others may have short ones. Most of us have no idea of the time frame when the grim reaper will call. Ask me about what it is like to know the general timeframe before I see that man with the dark hooded robe and the sickle slug over his shoulder. So ask me questions - tell me tales - disagree or debate if you want. Because finding things to blog about, my well is just about dry.
God Bless you all - Quit Smoking!